Wednesday, August 30, 2006

The Vagina Blogalouges

Okay...let's just say this has to do with LIFE
For the Ladies, we've all been there before. You know, the "I want my p**** back" stage in our life. We look at what we've done and who we've done it with...then we begin to think about the things or people that other person has done. Or we think about the warnings, the many, many warnings that we've received from our TRUE female friends. They warn us the "Yeild to the Flesh", don't pass go, do not collect $200. And what do we do...we abuse our body, our spirit and soul, and our vagina and give in to temptation. Our kind and giving hearts overflow our logic and we give in, thinking that we can convience the male species to change his ways and stick to one good woman instead of fromping around with many chicken heads.
Not that we believe we can use sex as a form of converting, more so the time...that's what it all boils down to, time and conversation. And just when we think we're making a break through, the male species in the end...is the same way we met them. Fact of the matter is, "A Man will NOT change unless he wants or is ready to."
This blog was conceived while I was speaking with a female friend. Ladies we sometime have a tendency to lower our standards in order to lift up someone male or female (depends on your preference). In hind sight, vision is 20/20. It is then that you realize that the person in which you wanted to lift up was not nor did they have intentions on, lifting their self up. In fact, they are totally comfortable lying to their self, making plans to change but never really getting around to it, wallowing in self pity, and watching time past them by as they continue in their everyday routine. Meanwhile, we...lose a certain level of respect for our self. Blame, blame, blame our self for being so foolish, question our actions, and search for redemption. Why do we do this? Because we are women...compassionate, thoughtful, giving, giving, and more giving. Some of us more than others.
Today, I apologized to myself and my vagina. We have been through some rough times together, nevertheless, she holds me down. I can always count on her to be there when I need her, even when she didn't feel like hanging out with me...she was a trooper and I am grateful for that. Another thing I decided to do today was to be more selfish. Not steingy (I think that's how you spell it) but selfish. As forementioned "we sometime have a tendency to lower our standards in order to lift up", I don't do that very often but I have in the past on more than one occasion. From this day forward, no more! I am moving forward and as harsh as it may sound...I cannot be a "care giver" anymore. The energy that one puts into constantly lifting someone up that does not have the intention nor drive to help their self...argh, it can be very exhausting. With that being said...Later for that part of my life.
I am however very grateful for every experience and lesson learned.
This is my pledge:
No more, "I want my p**** back" stages in life!
No more, lending my vagina out for temporary pleasure!
No more, bending over to help those that won't help their self!
More love for self!
More of Me!
Peace
Idle Vee

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