Perhaps I am reading it wrong although I seriously doubt it. My spirit is pretty wide open, I receive different vibes from people, at times...I can pretty much understand someones personality. Not to judge them but to understand them.
Here's the skinny: I am in a foreign place, very, very different customs from what I am used. In my mind, I am going to be here for a few months...why not try to understand something about their customs, beliefs, etc. The other night I am in the city with a few people that I somewhat work with, we decided to grab a bite to eat. We sit down at the table, our waitor comes over and takes our drink order...I am a naturally inquisitive person, I like to be familiar with my surroundings, so I ask the waitor, "What is your name?" "My name is Marco" he replies with a smile as he shakes my hand. "Hi Marco, my name is Veronica", I reply with an Italian accent, "Where are you from?", I ask. "Italy", he replies. "Cool, well nice to meet you Marco", then I introduce the other three people sitting at the table and they greet him as well. After the introduction, Marco excuses himself from the table to get our drinks, appetizers, and orders. It was then that the claws came out.
As forementioned, I could have been reading this wrong but it felt as if I were being attacked by ill vibes. 2 of the 3 people at my table appeared to be very rude to me for some reason. I voice my opinion on how much I love differnt cultures and how beautiful the women and men are, their skin, their complexion, just culture...God's creation. One person said something along the lines of "You just love to talk don't you?", in a very derrogatory manner. Moments later, the other person said "So Miss open minded how do you feel about swingers clubs?" I didn't know what to say, I was just being my self and for that I get attacked.
For a split second I sat back in my seat and decided that I wouldn't say not another single word all night, then I thought about it..."I'm flyy. Why the eff am I going to let them get to me?" So I sat upright in my chair and said "Look, I'm a people person, that's just the way I am so deal with it, alright." Although I was dead serious, I softened the edges by continuing on with conversation, I addressed my views on swingers clubs and why I DON'T get down with that. Pretty much I was being myself for the rest of the evening & night.
It seems that when some people feel intimidated they lash out by trying to break down the person they feel threated by. Why is that? Why can't everyone just accept people for who they are instead of trying to break down their confidence to put their self on top. I failed to mention in the beginning that it was 3 females (including myself, the new girl) and one male. Maybe that had a little bit to do with the tongue lashing. At any rate, nevermore will I feel like I need to mask my personality. I am me. I am not a competetor...well, not for any man anyway. It was just very interesting observing the night.
I realize that I just don't fit in some places. To date, I haven't found anyone that I can relate to over here and I doubt that I will, I am hopeful but I seriously doubt that someone will come along that I click with.
Signing off for now folks,
Peace
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